I’m going to tell ya, this post today is going to be a whole lot more put together than what I was talking about yesterday. I was at the point where I just wanted to be by myself and be left alone and cry. I did that, but I also prayed. I prayed that God would send me on the right path and to show me what His plan for me was. That was at about 10:30 last night, I fell asleep shortly after still with a confused heart and a headache. I woke back up around 12:30 AM and I felt peace. Now, I’m not pushing my beliefs on anyone that might be reading this, but when you hit a low point in your life where you truly don’t know what to do I do believe that prayer and trusting in the Lord will, at least, give you some peace.
I love writing, I love talking, I love being around people, and put me in front of a camera? Oh my goodness, I’m in heaven. Which is why I chose the path of journalism earlier this year. I also have another love, houses. Now, this is kind of crazy, but I’ve moved 18 times in my short 18 years of life, is it something to necessarily be proud of? Maybe not, but we always ended up right back where we started at The Shofner Farm. I always kind of loved moving and being in a new place and decorating my new room, with that I also came into contact with lots of real estate agents. When I was little me, my mom, and dad always went to auctions too, I loved those! I took these things as another sign, all of that moving and all of those auctions could be the reason that I end up as a real estate agent and learning more about marketing. With this career I will still be able to write a little, talk to new people every day, and it is always going to be something different! Of course, I still think it would be so much fun to be a cosmetologist, but coming from a family that has several salon owners in it, I know that cosmetology isn’t exactly the easiest path. Do I feel like I will regret attending Bluegrass Community and Technical College? Nope. Will I miss not going to college football and basketball games? Probably, but CATurday still exists and lets be real, the University of Kentucky Wildcats will ALWAYS be number one in my heart no matter where I go to school. Will I regret not getting the “dorm-life”? Probably. Life is full of “IFS”, if I don’t attend Georgetown what IF I regret not doing this or being a part of that? If I do attend Georgetown what IF I don’t like it and I’m still out over 12,000 dollars? What IF I attend BCTC and I love it and I finally find my calling? We don’t know the answer to any IF question that could be asked and who knows how long our time here on Earth is? Personally, I believe Earth is just kind of like a rental property for me to live on for a short period of time, the place that is my true home is up in Heaven. I find a lot of peace in knowing that, so I figure, while I’m down here on Earth I may as well be happy and live life to the fullest, if I happen to make some money along the way or some bad decisions or have some regrets, who cares? In the end God will be the One who judges us and takes away all of our pain and confusion. I saw a quote last night on pintrest that also really helped me a lot, “God will wreck your plans when he sees that your plans are about to wreck you.”, I took this is maybe God opened my eyes to everything these past few days because He knew that if I stuck with my current plans they wouldn’t be the best for me. Also something else that helped me find peace.
With all of that being said, I go to the Danville campus of Bluegrass Community and Technical College next Wednesday for orientation and to make my schedule for the fall. This time yesterday I had no idea what I was going to do or how I was going to do it. This time tomorrow I may change mind again on what I want to become after college, then again this time tomorrow none of us may even been here to worry about it. You never know when your last day is going to be, so why not be free and live without regret?
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” – Provers 3:5-6